It’s not that I need to be honest with you. More of I need to be honest with myself.
I have an issue and that issue is food.
Before I start , this post isn’t me looking for sympathy or anything like that. I just need to be honest with myself and by me putting it here it’s out there and I can stop denying it and start dealing with it.
So yes there you have it I have a problem with food. I tend to comfort eat… no I always comfort eat! Its probably not even comfort eating it’s just eating.
Yes I know there are a lot of people who do that and for many different reasons. For me sometimes it’s boredom or I’m struggling emotionally or I’m stressed.
But lately, well not lately it’s been going on for a while. I just can’t stop myself and sometimes will just eat for the sake of eating.
Personally I don’t eat 3 meals a day and often start my day with just a cup of coffee no breakfast at all. I will tend to have lunch and then tea. I don’t buy processed foods very often as I do like to cook and yes we do get takeaways but not all the time. Sometimes an evening snack of something that isn’t really good for you..
Lately it’s been playing on my mind A LOT. I’m not happy with my appearance or how I’m feeling. To the point where comfort eating is at its worst.
I know your thinking just go on a diet, I’ve been a member of slimming world on and off since my eldest was little, I’ve seen lots of people do really well on it, I’ve felt envious and jealous of them. Wishing that it was me but I have failed so many times.
I wish that I could have been successful and reaching my goal.
I have a gym membership which I have used and then I haven’t for a very long time. I know I want to get back into going to the gym but I always get nervous on how other people see me.
My self confidence is at an all time low. I say no to doing things because I’m worried how others will see me or think my god she’s overweight. I hate having my picture taken and if I do it’s normally just a head shot. I love fashion but to scared to try new trends as the thought of my troublesome parts being exposed.
I’m putting it out there so I can start to deal with it. I want to start feeling happy with myself to start seeing a difference. To be more confident and not worry what other people think of me when they see me. At this point in time I feel like I’m never going to get/be there.