I’m now three weeks in to this journey from Fat To Fit and this week has been a complete fail. There are no gym selfies this week, in fact I haven’t been the gym in a week.
My last workout was my taster with the PT and I really enjoyed it and it certainly was a work out as my muscles were hurting for about 4 days after. The girls found it funny that I struggled to walk up and down the stairs but to me I felt that it was a great work out done.
So how is this week a complete fail. Yes I am making some excuses and I know that I shouldn’t be making them. It has been all go with being back at work and the kids back at school, settling back in to a routine, I also have to do things on my own for a few days a week while the Mr is away for work.
I don’t feel I have been in the right frame of mind, in fact I feel like I’ve been so up and down this week so much that I have found it hard to deal with. I knew when I started this journey it wasn’t going to be easy as pie, let me tell you it’s a lot harder than you think.
Harder than I thought it was going to be!
How do you break the habits of a life time……
How do you fit it in with the family…..
How do you find the time to fit in the exercise it takes….
I’m sat here feeling pretty emotional and holding back the tears, why I don’t know, this seems like quite a depressing post doesn’t it but I want to record the whole journey including all the times I am and will struggle.
Food seems to be the big issue for me right now, I find myself reaching for stuff that I shouldn’t be doing. Even knowing that it’s not the best thing to eat but still wanting/eating it. It doesn’t make me feel any better but I am still in the habit of comfort eating. My willpower is crap!!
Seeing the Mr succeeding in his journey is making it hard too, he’s making it look so easy with having lost almost half a stone and his will power is amazing and while am really pleased for him. I hate the fact that I have yet to make a small dent in to my own weight loss.
So how am I going to turn this around in this next week…
I ordered a tracker to help me track my exercise, I am going to log what I eat to make myself accountable. I need to be honest with myself and not make excuses. I am going to MAKE the time and effort needed to go and exercise.
Apologies again for negative post but this is real life journey and there are going to be many up’s and down’s along the way.