Well for a while we have been experiencing meltdowns with my eldest. But lately I’m getting upset listening to her and the things that are making her upset… My heart just breaks a little more with each thing she’s worrying about. Tonight she told me she doesn’t know how to deal with the emotions that she’s feeling. We have talked about how her body is changing and hormones can be to blame, we talked about a ways where we don’t always end up shouting and screaming at each other. She’s worried about being a good person and wants to be better person but she doesn’t know how. She’s worried about being a good role model for her younger sister and also she a worrying about what other people think of her. She went on a weekend away with her new school and she was nervous about it on the day she was going (Friday) she said the thought of going was making her feel ill and she was going to miss us. She went to France and a week away with her primary school and was fine. I held back the tears while trying to tell her that she is an amazing person even thought she has her little breakdowns every now and again I love her with all my heart. She has dealt with leaving primary school and starting high school so well. I’m so proud of her. She is so down on herself at the moment and I don’t know how to pick her up or even the right words to say to her.
To me she is still my baby and want to make everything OK for her. But I don’t know how other than telling her she’s amazing and that I love her. To see her sobbing and how vulnerable she is really makes me sad.